The officially oldest woman in history Jeanne Louise Calment (122 years and 164 days) was recently challenged. Now it is suspected that at some point her daughter took her identity. The probable reason - taxes. Taxes are a good reason. Who knows what really happened...
My sister wants to live till 120. I wanted somewhat more modest 102.
But for a few months now I don't care anymore how long I will live.
I am still curious, will I make it so long? But the longing to live up to 100 (or 102) in particular is gone.
I am can only guess why that happened.
I am 45 now and for about 10 months I feel great, better then when I was 20.
I am connecting it to what I eat. I will not say anything about my diet on this blog because anything about nutrition is very controversial. Everyone has an opinion and many people are aggressive about that. I don't want to sink into that controversy/opinions swamp. It is nobody's business what I eat or don't eat.
Last weekend my mother told me that she is worried about my diet because it was criticized on TV. I told her that I am OK with dying earlier as a trade for how I feel now. While telling her that I realized that I don't care anymore how long I will live.
Usually a wish or a longing disappears after one of the two has happened:
1. With your actions you made sure that it happens. Subconsciously you know it and your mind stops worrying.
2. Or, with your actions you made sure that it will NOT happen. You know it subconsciously and you stop worrying.
The indecisive, unsure state makes you worry.
With my actions (change in diet) I probably made sure that I will live long or that I will live short. The change was big enough to make one of those two certain. But I don't know which way this certainty went.
I am OK with either outcome. The nagging feeling that I have to do something to extend my life disappeared.
I will still keep updating the Challenge 102 out of curiosity.
Who knows what else will change.
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